A very long time ago, there was this little girl that started dreaming of having a style blog, a magical place for her to pour her heart out, to have a big goal, a dream to aspire to - to be a respected and established blogger, and hopefully make some friends along the way.
But that little girl was well, little, and everyone advised her to wait. No one would take her seriously. And after all, little girls don't know what they really want yet. Full of doubt, that twelve year old girl waited. While waiting for what turned out to be a long time, she started to do two very different and contradictory things. One of them was forgetting about that little-girl-dream from time to time. Who could blame her. It was the time in which she moved to another continent (twice) and had to learn to speak (two) foreign languages fluently. But also let's not forget it's the time of all that teenager-y hormonal puberty stuff. So she was pretty busy.
And then there were the times where her mind wandered to her one big dream. As if it wouldn't be terrible on its own to only dream about something you want, she also started overthinking it. She played all the possible scenarios in her brain of what could go wrong. Of how she might be made fun of in real life, how her pictures might look ugly, of how it might turn out to be a big failure and her dream would be crushed forever...
Okay so here's the deal with cold weather. Most people I know always lust after warm, sunny summer days, and when they finally come, everyone tries to savor every bit of them. It's so much appreciation that normal everyday things get neglected because people want to be out in the sun for as long as it's shining. They hate when they have work to get done, even more so than usually, because "they could have been outside in the nice weather".
I think I finally put my finger on why I like the cold. I always knew that for some reason cloudy and chilly is the right environment for me to work in, but I never fully understood why. It's because in the cold, people drop the weather talk and the excuses that come along with it. They no longer rely on an unstable factor to dictate to them what they should do today. So in a way, the cold makes them more productive - which in turn lets me get the job done faster too.
If you've been reading my blog for a while you can't not have noticed that I've had a little obsession with Rihanna ever since I saw her on tour in July, just a few days before my birthday. It was one of the best presents ever. She was one of my favorite pop stars when I was younger, but the hype died out for some time,. What happened is that I grew up, my taste changed, or better said - I started understanding that I don't need to like what's on the radio. From then on I accepted and embraced my rather alternative taste in music.
And then she put out the Anti album and it was unlike anything else I've listened to before.
I started respecting her so much as an artist from then on. When I saw she was going on tour I almost couldn't find anybody to go with me, which by the principle of wanting the things you can't have only made me want to go more. And when I finally saw live, my obsession became official. And it's all documented here.
I'm back! And I'm so excited to be. I'm so glad that I have a blog where I can put my spare time to purposeful use. Meanwhile, other aspects of life have been demanding too much of my attention, and I always regret not being that type of organized person that gets all their work done under pressure. However, let's not forget that there are people that don't get that work done at all and I'm happy to know I don't fall into that category. Even so, I don't regard writing posts as work, much more as something to take my mind off tasks and deadlines and to relax. So here is my ootd :)
I love the feeling you get when you start a new project. To some people, this project may be some sort of huge lifestyle change, "the beginning of a new era" so to say. To me personally, I get more easily motivated if I think about even little things as a fresh start. I call it "the beginning of a new year". Whenever I use the my little, made-up term, I start getting a certain feeling of spring - this is probably why it is my favorite season. Whenever I get the spring vibes, I also feel the need to portray them on he outside, and what is a better way to do that than my outfit?
Btw, it's almost the beginning of winter over here in Europe. Still, I found a day warm enough that it was appropriate for my spring vibes outfit, and I used the opportunity.